both jeff and i are under-employed, and despite the fact that we have our MA degrees, we also have a long long row to hoe before we get MFT licensure and start making the
big mediocre bucks. we live in a 5 person shared flat, and are trying to garden using free materials on a shared back deck. we barely make rent and are on foodstamps. our families are helping us, and we would drown without them. the only way i am staying in internship is by the grace of the institution’s director. we have big dreams (a farm for fern! goats! chickens! bees! an income we can live off of! employment! a client load!) and since our resources look scarce, it can be easy to start in with the very small fiddle playing “cry for us”. but in comparison to so much of the world (southern sudan, omg) we still live like royalty. and there is also a lot of goodness in our lives and abundance to be found if we just look up. sunny side of the street, and all that. we have enough to share.
our little elfea with her godmama kerri, wearing the hat kerri gave her on easter. the abundance of children and life-long friends.
and so it begins. sugar pod peas from the seeds america gave us, replanted as seedlings in soil the free farm gave us, in a re-used planter box with horse poo on top we shoveled ourselves. great goodness.
new creations from gibson girl antiquities, using found bark and vintage images that i’ve had forevah. creative energy is all around.
yard sales, street scores and thrift stores have special fairies that work it especially hard for those in need. you just have to be open to receiving what you can get, not going out and consuming what you want, when you want it. we’ve had some wonderful finds that past couple of weeks:
i’ve wanted one of these for about 15 years. a food mill, and this one happens to be 100 years old. found at a mission yard sale for $7.
“neighhhhh!” a hobby horse for fern, scored for free on the street. the end of the stick has wheels for less drag, more clippity-clop.
an $80 dehydrator found while waiting in line at community thrift on 1/2 off day. guess how much?
half-off at $2.50. wow, that put a skip in my step.
taking a bath with a toe eating baby. entertainment that money can’t buy.
spring beauty shared from far away by an online friend. “liriodendron tulipfera” (tulip tree) taken by jen marlow over at artsy craftsy slightly crunchy. she’s beginning a new permaculture journey, is an inspiring artist and has a cutie-pie little girl. check her out.
joy doesn’t always come easy. i have to cultivate it, remind myself of it, sometimes fake it ’til i make it, and always hold with gentleness and allowance the sorrow, grief and concern. what else? a loving partner, bird song, good friends, LOST, my dog, epic walks, music, meditation, synchronicity, magic in the mundane, wildflowers, a good cleansing cry, online acquaintances and readers (hey you!) and snacks.
not too shabby.